Thursday, December 29, 2005

Conterdictions? by AB~

Chasing stars in daylight,
Sunbathing at midnight,
Swimming in the dessart,
Crying at your sight,
Talking with my mouth closed,
Seeing with no eyes,
Dancing when I'm cripped,
Tethered with no ties,
Swinging from no axle,
Spinning while I'm still,
Hungery when I've eatten,
Finding time to kill,
Naked with my clothes on,
Dead but still alive,
Laughing at my heartbreak,
Stabbing with no knive,
Wandering to a perpose,
Loving to an end,
Giving to aquire,
Lying to a friend,
Goals that have no perpuse,
Inmates that have no crime,
Feeling, no emotion,
Riddles with no rym,
Are these contridictions,
Words that make no sence,
Or is they hidden meaning,
Stained, in the contence.

Sunday, December 25, 2005

Reaching for Sunshine by AB

I reach for the sun,
And it sinks through my skin,
Basking in warmth,
As the light flows in,

It shines through my windows
And through glass doors pours,
I'm hiding inside,
I wonder what for,

The sun is inviting,
It calles out my name,
But I sitting inside,
Feeling insaine,

I have no idea,
What holds me inside,
Or what is the reason,
That I want to hide,

Invisible chains,
Hold me indoors,
As light streams through my windows,
And knocks on the doors.

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

Breaking Hearts by AB~

What do you do when they are waking,
What do you do when they are in school,
Were have you gone when they are sleeping,
Do you feel happy, Do you feel cool,
Are you with her, when they are crying,
When they are sick, do you even care,
You say that you miss them, but are lying,
If you miss them, why aren't you here ,
If she loved you, she wouldn't ask you,
To leave your children, to cast them away,
They have missed you every seccond,
They have cried for you, every day,
Were is the love, in the pain that you cause them ,
Why did you do this, to them and to you,
You say your in pain, but it's of your own making,
If she really loves you, she would love them to,
You ask if I'm angry, you ask if I hate you,
I don't even know, what you want me to say,
I think, you are asking, to clear you own consious,
If you want some redemtion, you must find your own way,
I look at there faces, I see your ressemblence,
They are part you, and they are part me,
But everyday, they are changing,
Becoming more of what they see,
I am the one, here to guide them,
I am the one who wipes their tears,
And when your away, they truly miss you,
But I am the one who comforts there fears,
So live you life, and let us be happy,
Let us have joy, back in our lives,
If you want them to know you, then you must be preasent,
Come back to them swiftly, or sever all ties.

I Have Seen a Place of Beauty by AB~

I have seen a place of beauty,
It is far beyond today,

But in my mind I see it clearly,
And in my dreams I know the way,

I see you standing there beside me,
I hear your vioce, I see your face,

Even when you may not know it,
You are with me, in this place,

When the nights are dark and cloudy,
I close my eyes, and drift away,

To this place were I am happy,
Dreaming of a distant day,

Sunday, December 18, 2005

Saving My Kisses by AB~

As we say good bye,
My cheeks cannot stay dry,

I try to hold the tears,
But I love you so, my dear,

You will be on my mind,
My thaughts, left behind,

I hold a gental smile,
Crying all the while,

I'll save for you a kiss,
Your words I'll dearly miss,

But when you go away,
Your love, with me, will stay,

To keep me company,
And set my soal free,

Your love the rarest find,
Your vioce so sweet and kind,

I walk as in a trance,
Our love, my final dance,

Come switly back to me,
This my final plea,

And when the day is new,
I, will look, for you,

When, I see, your face,
With my eyes, I will embrace,

Left hanging here in time,
My heart, with yours intwined,

Sunday, November 20, 2005

"Reflections of the Past" By AB

Reflections of the past,
keep stealing my time,
Robbing my sainity,
Robbing my mind,
I push them back down,
Deep down, disguised,
But they 've taken there toll,
And broken my inside,
I am exposed,
My feelings, denied,
I try to run,
But lost my pride,
Torn appart,
And left to die,
I pick up the piece,
As the pain subsides,
Clinging to my future,
As the past collides,
Feeling so dead,
Yet so alive,
Tossed upon a life raft,
Asking of my inner guide,
Searching for my dignity,
No were left to hide,
Letting go my shame,
As I swim agginst the tide,
I crossed the mighty ocean,
But, shame met me on the other side.

Saturday, November 19, 2005

The World Through Colored Glass by AB

Everything is colorful,
Everything feels right,
My worlds made up of colors,
Painted with the light,
Adventures are, the wings of dreamers,
Time will seek to tame,
But everything is brightly colored,
Through my window pane,
Colors dances in unison,
Thier mysterys untold,
Watching through a hazy glaze,
They magicaly unfold.
Swirling through my daydreams,
And dance before my eyes,
Each individual color,
Holds a story, in disguise,
The colors come togeather,
To paint a rainbow cast,
Through my magic window,
Made of colored glass,
~AB

Sunday, November 13, 2005

"When Dark Clouds Descend" by AB

When the sun does not shine,
When dark clouds descend,
I will search for the light,
I will strive 'til the end,
I will never give up,
I will push towards the light,
I will hold myself true,
I will break trough the night,
When I'm drowning in tears,
When the pain tries to win,
I will open the windows,
And let the light in,
I will pull back the shutters,
I will let lose my shame,
I won't be a pawn,
I will play my own game,
When winter has come,
And I'm chilled to the bone,
When I sink in the ocean,
like a lifeless old stone,
I will be my own anchor,
I will raise my own sail,
I will pull myself up,
And blaze my own trail,
When I'm lost in the forest,
And the night steels the day,
I will call to the moon,
By it's light,
Find a way,
Even through darkness ,
We can all find a light,
And pierce through the rain clouds,
And chase back the night,
For the frail can be vital,
And the weak can be strong,
So never give up 'til the gray clouds are gone.

~ AB

Monday, October 10, 2005

"An Exercise in Pen and Ink" by AB

"The Day She Killed You" by AB

The day she killed you,
I died.
Not my body,
But my inside.
I looked alive,
But I was dead,
Because of all the things,
You've said.
The love is gone.
Now let me free,
Don't you know,
That we can't be?
I am straight,
And you are gay,
You won't go,
But I won't stay.
I have a heart,
I have a mind,
I deserve the love,
That I find.
You made your chioce,
Now live your life,
I wish you well,
I am not you wife.

"Cracked" by AB

I am cracked,
I am torn,
Riped appart.
Make me whole,
Make me feel,
Let me love.
Take me scarred,
Take me bruised,
Take me beaten.
I will heal,
I can feel,
I can love.
Give me hope,
Give me peace,
Give me sollace.
I will breath,
my last breath,
Just for you.
Though I'm bruised,
I'm hurt,
I am bleeding,
With your love,
I will find my way thruogh.

"Two Fish" color pencil by AB

Saturday, October 08, 2005

Now Listening to " Mr. Lonely " by Akon

This goes out to all of you that have loved, and lost, still waiting to love, and esspecialy to you Nickcole. Love ya girl ! :) AB

Thursday, October 06, 2005

" Love "

Love wasn't put in our hearts to stay,
Love isn't love 'til you give it away.

I had written this quote down a few
years ago, and thaught that it was
origanal until I did a quote serch
Today, and found out that it is part
of a poem by Chanh Kha . Who knew!
I certainly didn't. Any way, I will post
The whole poem by Chanh Kha Below.
LOL, AB :)

A bell is not a bell until someone rings it,
A song is not a song until someome sings it,

Love wasn't put in our hearts to stay,
For love isn't love 'til you give it away.

~ Chanh Kha

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

"Gentoo Penguin" sketch by AB

"Sorry yet Thankful" by AB

Sorry for who I am,
Sorry for who I should be,
Sorry for the things I've done,
Sorry for being me.

Thank you for who I am,
Thank you for who I should be,
Thank you for the things I've done,
Thank you for being me.

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

" A Whisper Stuck in Time" by AB

I am playing hide and seek,
And I am left to find.
I open every single door,
And window in my mind.
Wondering when I'll find my way,
The past I've left to hide.
looking for the perfect me,
But me I can't devied.
Serching trough this emptiness,
Through this world of crime.
Trying to find a wave to catch,
A whisper stuck in time.

Monday, September 26, 2005

" Letting Dreams Fly" by AB

I am awake,
I am alive,
I will have faith,
I will not cry,
I will still love,
Keep joy alive,
Hope conquers fears,
Letting dreams fly.

Friday, September 23, 2005

"Everything Under the Sun" by AB

You said, should I go,
And I said, yes, no,
And everything under the sun.
You said, your confused,
And I ask was I used,
And I feel like a fool in the end.
Now I can see,
That you never loved me,
And I feel so worthless, and shamed.
For me it was true,
But I see that for you,
I was only a muse in the end.
So after this day,
Best friends we must stay,
Unless your confution, should end.
Then I'll ask, should I go,
And you'll say, yes, no,
And everything under the sun.

Monday, September 19, 2005

"Thier Screams Were Never Heard" by AB

When is it right to injure,
We are killing them every day,
If I inflict, than I am a torcher,
And that is not my way.
What is the differance between us,
If I don't speak my mind,
If I can't stand for myself,
Then let me stand at there side.
They are still and quite.
Thier lives they did not give.
Thier lives were taken from them,
Thier lives no more to live.
They screamed, and begged and pleaded.
They cried, but with never a word.
And so they screamed in silance,
A plead that no one heard.
Thier love ones died before them,
Sometimes they watched them die,
Thier eyes were sick and pleading,
For someone to hear thier cry.
They don't speak our language,
But I could understand,
And if you to would listened,
Beside us you might stand.

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

"When Dreams Hit Reality" By AB

When dreams hit reality,
something has to give.
I wish that I could never wake,
my dreams that I might live.
But when the morning light arrives,
and I am still alive,
I wonder when that day will come,
My dreams will have to die.
Each second passes without stop,
the clock keeps ticking on.
My life is flying by this way,
and now my dreams are gone.
I left them by the wayside,
A struggle to servive.
and if I ever find my way,
my dreams are not alive.
Why did I do this to myself,
I gave away my soal.
I thaught that I would get it back,
but cant afford the toll.
....and If morning never came ,
and I did not awake.
I think I would be happier,
in the dream world I would make.

Thursday, August 25, 2005

"Heavens Tears"

Out my window, pouring rain.
Falling from the stars domain.

Heavens tears, to bring us life.
Drownding sorrow, pain and strife.

Washing all my fears away.
Drenched in happiness I 'll stay.

Drops of wisdom, sinking in,
Through my ever lucid skin.

To cleanse my soul, and set me free,
Heavens tears, sent just for me.

Saturday, August 20, 2005

"In Love" by Angery Butterfly

Some one touched my shoulder,
I turned, it was you,
but then you slipped away,
Oh what am I to do?

I thaught I heard you call my name,
your vioce rang loud and clear,
but I was all alone, in bed,
and no one else was near.

Someone kissed me softly,
I felt a kiss from you,
I know that I was dreaming,
but I wish that it was true.

I know I heard you wistper,
I love you, in my ear,
I know that it was not you,
but I wish that you were here.

Sunday, August 14, 2005

"Drenched in Happiness"

Feeling beautiful, today,
feeling good.
Drenched in happiness, today,
like I should.
I learned to sing, today,
loud and strong.
Feeling young, today,
right or wrong.
Dreams are magical,today,
fly away.
Forget the practical,today,
shout hurray.
I can dance, today,
in my soul.
I am me, today,
I am whole.

"Lion Fish" Color Pencil

"Country Folk" scetches in pencil

Saturday, August 13, 2005

"Untitled" Pencil

"Drum Head" Marker



I was inspired to draw this,after shopping for drums ,at a music teachers confernce, I attended.

I enclosed a link, to the sight, of one of my favorite percussionists, Glen Velez. I took a couple of his workshops, at the confernce , and they are fantastic!

"Seal Feeding" scetch in pencil

"Pig" (childrens book illustration.)

Thursday, August 11, 2005

"Dancing with Snowflakes"

Through the trees, a cool wind blows,
It lifts my scarf, and chills my nose,
I look around, I see the snow,
the white flakes shimmer to, and fro,
I try to catch one in my hand,
as on the river bank I stand,
I gaze across it's dim expanse,
as the flakes perform thier dance.
If I could skate, I'd go and see,
If the snow would dance with me.

"Untitled" Pencil

"Tribute to Some of my Favorites" Pencil

"Untitled" Pencil

"Staring out Window" Pencil

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

"Life is a Bubble"

Life is a bubble.
Who knows when we'll pop.
The wind picks us up,
and who knows were we'll stop,

If you catch the right breeze,
you can soar far, and high.
but what ever goes up,
must fall from the sky,

At some point,
we all have that day we will die,
I just hope that I pop.......
While up in the sky.

Saturday, August 06, 2005

"Our House Made of Glass"

Sometimes I want to run away,
away and stay.
Then I think of you,
and what you would do,
the feelings pass,
in our house made of glass,
because that I love you.
Sometimes I want to fly away free.
far, far away..... happy to be.
Then I think of you,
and your happiness too,
The feelings pass,
in our house made of glass,
because that I love you.
Sometimes I want to slip out at night.
It takes all my might,
to know what to do,
then I think of you,
and the feelings pass,
in our house made of glass,
because that I love you.
Sometimes I want to fade out of sight.
Out of the light.
Then I think of you,
and your wishes too,
and the feelings pass,
in our house made of glass,
because that I love you.

Friday, August 05, 2005

"Daydreamer"

I'm the one,
who draws smileys on fingers,
daydreams out windows,
and quitly lingers.
I like walks in the rain,
and rolling in snow.
Ice cream sundays,
and talent shows.
Skinny dipping,
(when no ones around.)
Picnics on Tuesdays,
and the winds gental sounds.
I like to wake early,
and I'm never late.
I want to go dancing,
and learn how to skate.
You'd probably find me,
someplace vary still.
quit and peacful,
vary tranquil.

" In Pieces"

I wanted to scream,
I wanted to cry,
I don't understand,
I can't even try.
I won't be like you.
I can't live like that.
It wouldn't be me.
I can't wear that hat.
You need to step down.
You need to step back.
You said that you loved me,
Now treat me like that.
You shouldn't be selfish.
You shouldn't have lied.
You riped out my heart.
and distroyed my pride.
Broken in pieces,
our relationship lies,
do we pick up the peices,
or sever all ties.