Conterdictions? by AB~

Chasing stars in daylight,
Sunbathing at midnight,
Swimming in the dessart,
Crying at your sight,
Talking with my mouth closed,
Seeing with no eyes,
Dancing when I'm cripped,
Tethered with no ties,
Swinging from no axle,
Spinning while I'm still,
Hungery when I've eatten,
Finding time to kill,
Naked with my clothes on,
Dead but still alive,
Laughing at my heartbreak,
Stabbing with no knive,
Wandering to a perpose,
Loving to an end,
Giving to aquire,
Lying to a friend,
Goals that have no perpuse,
Inmates that have no crime,
Feeling, no emotion,
Riddles with no rym,
Are these contridictions,
Words that make no sence,
Or is they hidden meaning,
Stained, in the contence.

Reaching for Sunshine by AB

I reach for the sun,
And it sinks through my skin,
Basking in warmth,
As the light flows in,

It shines through my windows
And through glass doors pours,
I'm hiding inside,
I wonder what for,

The sun is inviting,
It calles out my name,
But I sitting inside,
Feeling insaine,

I have no idea,
What holds me inside,
Or what is the reason,
That I want to hide,

Invisible chains,
Hold me indoors,
As light streams through my windows,
And knocks on the doors.

Breaking Hearts by AB~

What do you do when they are waking,
What do you do when they are in school,
Were have you gone when they are sleeping,
Do you feel happy, Do you feel cool,
Are you with her, when they are crying,
When they are sick, do you even care,
You say that you miss them, but are lying,
If you miss them, why aren't you here ,
If she loved you, she wouldn't ask you,
To leave your children, to cast them away,
They have missed you every seccond,
They have cried for you, every day,
Were is the love, in the pain that you cause them ,
Why did you do this, to them and to you,
You say your in pain, but it's of your own making,
If she really loves you, she would love them to,
You ask if I'm angry, you ask if I hate you,
I don't even know, what you want me to say,
I think, you are asking, to clear you own consious,
If you want some redemtion, you must find your own way,
I look at there faces, I see your ressemblence,
They are part you, and they are part me,
But everyday, they are changing,
Becoming more of what they see,
I am the one, here to guide them,
I am the one who wipes their tears,
And when your away, they truly miss you,
But I am the one who comforts there fears,
So live you life, and let us be happy,
Let us have joy, back in our lives,
If you want them to know you, then you must be preasent,
Come back to them swiftly, or sever all ties.

I Have Seen a Place of Beauty by AB~

I have seen a place of beauty,
It is far beyond today,

But in my mind I see it clearly,
And in my dreams I know the way,

I see you standing there beside me,
I hear your vioce, I see your face,

Even when you may not know it,
You are with me, in this place,

When the nights are dark and cloudy,
I close my eyes, and drift away,

To this place were I am happy,
Dreaming of a distant day,

Saving My Kisses by AB~

As we say good bye,
My cheeks cannot stay dry,

I try to hold the tears,
But I love you so, my dear,

You will be on my mind,
My thaughts, left behind,

I hold a gental smile,
Crying all the while,

I'll save for you a kiss,
Your words I'll dearly miss,

But when you go away,
Your love, with me, will stay,

To keep me company,
And set my soal free,

Your love the rarest find,
Your vioce so sweet and kind,

I walk as in a trance,
Our love, my final dance,

Come switly back to me,
This my final plea,

And when the day is new,
I, will look, for you,

When, I see, your face,
With my eyes, I will embrace,

Left hanging here in time,
My heart, with yours intwined,

"Reflections of the Past" By AB

Reflections of the past,
keep stealing my time,
Robbing my sainity,
Robbing my mind,
I push them back down,
Deep down, disguised,
But they 've taken there toll,
And broken my inside,
I am exposed,
My feelings, denied,
I try to run,
But lost my pride,
Torn appart,
And left to die,
I pick up the piece,
As the pain subsides,
Clinging to my future,
As the past collides,
Feeling so dead,
Yet so alive,
Tossed upon a life raft,
Asking of my inner guide,
Searching for my dignity,
No were left to hide,
Letting go my shame,
As I swim agginst the tide,
I crossed the mighty ocean,
But, shame met me on the other side.

The World Through Colored Glass by AB

Everything is colorful,
Everything feels right,
My worlds made up of colors,
Painted with the light,
Adventures are, the wings of dreamers,
Time will seek to tame,
But everything is brightly colored,
Through my window pane,
Colors dances in unison,
Thier mysterys untold,
Watching through a hazy glaze,
They magicaly unfold.
Swirling through my daydreams,
And dance before my eyes,
Each individual color,
Holds a story, in disguise,
The colors come togeather,
To paint a rainbow cast,
Through my magic window,
Made of colored glass,
~AB

"When Dark Clouds Descend" by AB

When the sun does not shine,
When dark clouds descend,
I will search for the light,
I will strive 'til the end,
I will never give up,
I will push towards the light,
I will hold myself true,
I will break trough the night,
When I'm drowning in tears,
When the pain tries to win,
I will open the windows,
And let the light in,
I will pull back the shutters,
I will let lose my shame,
I won't be a pawn,
I will play my own game,
When winter has come,
And I'm chilled to the bone,
When I sink in the ocean,
like a lifeless old stone,
I will be my own anchor,
I will raise my own sail,
I will pull myself up,
And blaze my own trail,
When I'm lost in the forest,
And the night steels the day,
I will call to the moon,
By it's light,
Find a way,
Even through darkness ,
We can all find a light,
And pierce through the rain clouds,
And chase back the night,
For the frail can be vital,
And the weak can be strong,
So never give up 'til the gray clouds are gone.

~ AB

"The Robin" by AB Color Pencil

"Squirrel" Color Pencil by AB

"Plant" Line drawing in pencil by AB

"An Exercise in Pen and Ink" by AB

"The Day She Killed You" by AB

The day she killed you,
I died.
Not my body,
But my inside.
I looked alive,
But I was dead,
Because of all the things,
You've said.
The love is gone.
Now let me free,
Don't you know,
That we can't be?
I am straight,
And you are gay,
You won't go,
But I won't stay.
I have a heart,
I have a mind,
I deserve the love,
That I find.
You made your chioce,
Now live your life,
I wish you well,
I am not you wife.

"Cracked" by AB

I am cracked,
I am torn,
Riped appart.
Make me whole,
Make me feel,
Let me love.
Take me scarred,
Take me bruised,
Take me beaten.
I will heal,
I can feel,
I can love.
Give me hope,
Give me peace,
Give me sollace.
I will breath,
my last breath,
Just for you.
Though I'm bruised,
I'm hurt,
I am bleeding,
With your love,
I will find my way thruogh.

"Two Fish" color pencil by AB

Now Listening to " Mr. Lonely " by Akon

This goes out to all of you that have loved, and lost, still waiting to love, and esspecialy to you Nickcole. Love ya girl ! :) AB

" Love "

Love wasn't put in our hearts to stay,
Love isn't love 'til you give it away.

I had written this quote down a few
years ago, and thaught that it was
origanal until I did a quote serch
Today, and found out that it is part
of a poem by Chanh Kha . Who knew!
I certainly didn't. Any way, I will post
The whole poem by Chanh Kha Below.
LOL, AB :)

A bell is not a bell until someone rings it,
A song is not a song until someome sings it,

Love wasn't put in our hearts to stay,
For love isn't love 'til you give it away.

~ Chanh Kha

"Gentoo Penguin" sketch by AB

"Sorry yet Thankful" by AB

Sorry for who I am,
Sorry for who I should be,
Sorry for the things I've done,
Sorry for being me.

Thank you for who I am,
Thank you for who I should be,
Thank you for the things I've done,
Thank you for being me.

" A Whisper Stuck in Time" by AB

I am playing hide and seek,
And I am left to find.
I open every single door,
And window in my mind.
Wondering when I'll find my way,
The past I've left to hide.
looking for the perfect me,
But me I can't devied.
Serching trough this emptiness,
Through this world of crime.
Trying to find a wave to catch,
A whisper stuck in time.